Crap.

I like to plan way far in advance. I like things to be planned my way or no other way... But there might be a possibility this time that I can't plan it exactly the way I want. Being forced to do it another way without any possible way of changing it, I think well, this plan might be okay too. Sometimes I am ignorant to other ways or opinions and it has been selfish of me.

I don't know for sure if this is the new plan... But we will find out for sure next week...

It changes everything. And it is a huge wakeup call for something I have never felt. It is weird to think I never even considered somethings when making my own plan for when it was supposed to happen. How is it that when something is forced upon you, you think of things you would assume would come to mind normally.

My first thoughts: "Crap."

My 2nd thoughts: "Okay, okay, I got this."

My 3rd thoughts: "Holy crap!!!"