Update on baby thoughts

So I really want a little girl first. I need a little girl. But I still want to wait. I do not want to be living down here in the cave and at this complex. It is a good situation but I don't think it is the right environment for a baby and Dustin and I need to be doing our own things when we have our first. I also want to be done with my associate and for Dustin to be done with his bachelors. Which if all goes to plan we both should be done by next summer. If I am not done I swear I will quit. I have been done with school for a long time and can't handle it for much longer.

I also would like to be more in shape. Yeah everyone says that and never meets their goals. Well I have to do this goal.. or I will be too scared to have a child. I have a theory that if I am really fit and flexible that I will have a better birth, maybe even easier. Some people disagree that you should plan everything perfectly for your first child and not to base it around expenses or little things. That when you have a child everything will fall into place... Hehe riiiight. I have a hard time believing that. What is wrong with a little responsibility and preparedness.

Anyway, that is where I am right now with that whole thing. For some reason I am keeping these random thought processes about this on this blog...

I do however have a very large amount of baby clothes already. Not very many newborn stuff because people always get that stuff for baby showers, so I get like 3-9 month stuff. My family makes fun of me but I don't care. I have fun with it.

One other thing.. I feel like Dustin and I still need some time to ourselves to make sure our relationship can handle a child. If it is good before having a kid then when all the kids are older and you end up alone again together it should be good then too.

Lets just say we need a little bit more time...

Until next time..