We are expanding the fam to 4!

I found out December 2nd that I was pregnant. I was so relieved. For a couple reasons. One we had been trying for a while and two I wanted to avoid having a fall/winter baby. I just barely made the cutoff.

August 11th, 2015

I am going back and forth with how I am going to tell Dustin and family. I wanted to tell him on his birthday again like last time. But I will be 14 weeks then and I don't know if I can hide it until then. I can keep a secret for a long time, that is no big deal. Its more hiding in case I have any nausea, I get a little bigger or I am just so tired all the time like last time. I might just have to tell him at Christmas. But I don't want to tell other family until it is safe and I am passed the point of having a miscarriage. Plus why do people need to know that early anyway? There is more, "How are you feeling?" and "Are you excited?" questions that I hate.

"Be Patient"

So back in November of 2013, Dustin and I wanted to go to the temple to do some work as well as get some inspiration of when our Heavenly Father thinks about #2. I forgot to write about this and I think it is kind of important and thought I should put this little tidbit in here.

While we were in the Celestial Room, I suggested we prayed about it.
Then we did and sat for a while pondering...
Then I suggested we read the scriptures that are available in the room. We weren't quite sure what to read for some inspiration or answers so we looked up children, family, baby, etc....
After prayers and scripture reading, the answer we got was,

"Be patient."

Sigh....

Something I am not very good at.

So after that I just decided it was better to wait like 6 months and look for inspiration again or to see if we still needed to be patient. We haven't started trying yet. It hasn't felt like that time.

Meanwhile family and friends down here have been asking me or assuming things. As if I can control this. We can do our part, but really our part is only like 50% of being in control.

Someone up there is really not ready yet.

Close call.

So last week we had a close call as far as almost having #2. I was late a week and I was anxious to know why because without sharing too much detail, it didn't make sense for me to be that late. And we weren't trying. I have been irregular since I started again after having Pria. But not THAT irregular. Usually just 2 days off.
Anyway.
I went out and bought a tester after 6 days and on day 7 my worries went away... Haha.
If that had happened though we would have had our next kid in the month of October. Same as Pria only two weeks earlier. I had mixed feelings about that idea. If it was a second girl doing birthdays would be easier but still wouldn't be as special for them in possibly sharing birthday parties... And if it was a boy that would be very difficult. A girl/boy birthday party would be hard to do. Especially once they are older and want more boys or more girls or like if Pria wanted a princess party for example. Then we would have to be doing separate parties and that would get expensive. And hard for when families want to do just a family party. They are only going to want to combine parties so they don't have to do two in a row especially when some don't live close.
So,
"phew!"
It would have been a happy thing for sure, but as far as birthdays go, not so awesome in my opinion.  I like to plan and decorate as far as parties go. As you may know if you went to Pria's birthday last year... I went all out haha.
I am hoping for a spring baby this time. October was a great month, but I can't do that month twice. And I really don't want to have a baby November-February.