9 Weeks

Other than feeling tired more than normal I haven't really felt too much of a difference yet. When I was around 6-7 weeks I had some nausea a lot but that has seemed to go away. I have only gotten sick once a couple days before I told Dustin. But it didn't give away anything. He wasn't suspicious.

I didn't tell him in a dramatic way like I normally like to do. I simply gave him a card on Christmas day that he read in the car after we opened Christmas presents at my parents. I told him I forgot to give him his card.

I didn't want to tell my family yet. I am hoping to wait as long as I can. Just so it isn't an instant topic that I am questioned with... I am 9 weeks right now and I am pretty sure I can at least hide it until 12 weeks. Plus I want to schedule a doctors appointment with the Birth Center first as well. I want to be well prepared. There is new management at the Birth Center so I am curious how different it will be.

I am remembering how much I hate having to pee all the time. And it is only the first trimester. I hate getting up a couple times in the middle of the night to pee. Especially since during my first trimester it is during winter and is FREEZING in our house to get up and sit on an ice cube of a toilet after trying to be quiet and not wake Pria up. Our floors and doors are verrry loud...

We are expanding the fam to 4!

I found out December 2nd that I was pregnant. I was so relieved. For a couple reasons. One we had been trying for a while and two I wanted to avoid having a fall/winter baby. I just barely made the cutoff.

August 11th, 2015

I am going back and forth with how I am going to tell Dustin and family. I wanted to tell him on his birthday again like last time. But I will be 14 weeks then and I don't know if I can hide it until then. I can keep a secret for a long time, that is no big deal. Its more hiding in case I have any nausea, I get a little bigger or I am just so tired all the time like last time. I might just have to tell him at Christmas. But I don't want to tell other family until it is safe and I am passed the point of having a miscarriage. Plus why do people need to know that early anyway? There is more, "How are you feeling?" and "Are you excited?" questions that I hate.

"Be Patient"

So back in November of 2013, Dustin and I wanted to go to the temple to do some work as well as get some inspiration of when our Heavenly Father thinks about #2. I forgot to write about this and I think it is kind of important and thought I should put this little tidbit in here.

While we were in the Celestial Room, I suggested we prayed about it.
Then we did and sat for a while pondering...
Then I suggested we read the scriptures that are available in the room. We weren't quite sure what to read for some inspiration or answers so we looked up children, family, baby, etc....
After prayers and scripture reading, the answer we got was,

"Be patient."

Sigh....

Something I am not very good at.

So after that I just decided it was better to wait like 6 months and look for inspiration again or to see if we still needed to be patient. We haven't started trying yet. It hasn't felt like that time.

Meanwhile family and friends down here have been asking me or assuming things. As if I can control this. We can do our part, but really our part is only like 50% of being in control.

Someone up there is really not ready yet.

Close call.

So last week we had a close call as far as almost having #2. I was late a week and I was anxious to know why because without sharing too much detail, it didn't make sense for me to be that late. And we weren't trying. I have been irregular since I started again after having Pria. But not THAT irregular. Usually just 2 days off.
Anyway.
I went out and bought a tester after 6 days and on day 7 my worries went away... Haha.
If that had happened though we would have had our next kid in the month of October. Same as Pria only two weeks earlier. I had mixed feelings about that idea. If it was a second girl doing birthdays would be easier but still wouldn't be as special for them in possibly sharing birthday parties... And if it was a boy that would be very difficult. A girl/boy birthday party would be hard to do. Especially once they are older and want more boys or more girls or like if Pria wanted a princess party for example. Then we would have to be doing separate parties and that would get expensive. And hard for when families want to do just a family party. They are only going to want to combine parties so they don't have to do two in a row especially when some don't live close.
So,
"phew!"
It would have been a happy thing for sure, but as far as birthdays go, not so awesome in my opinion.  I like to plan and decorate as far as parties go. As you may know if you went to Pria's birthday last year... I went all out haha.
I am hoping for a spring baby this time. October was a great month, but I can't do that month twice. And I really don't want to have a baby November-February.

Thoughts on the 2nd...

My mind is jumbled on this topic. I never understood why moms were sad but happy right before they had their second...

Now I understand.

It actually makes me sad just thinking about it. A knot in my throat. And I am not even pregnant on the next yet! I have talked with Dustin about this. It is almost hard to express the idea of having a second after Pria has become my everything, my whole world. It's almost like I am cheating on her so to speak. How can I love another as much as I love her?

I want to be able to give her as much mommy time as possible. How can I give more than one kid equal loving attention? Is it selfish to only want to love one and give her everything? I understand parents who choose to have only one. I know I will have more than one, but this is just how I feel.

Besides the emotional part... I am wondering what kind of physical toll having another is going to have on me. Not having the baby but the day to day picking up, holding, chasing, feeding, no sleep physical part. Dustin works during the day and he sleeps through the night... Those who haven't had kids wonder how bad can it be? I remember. I was that person...
My back might give out before I am 50!!! Thank goodness I have my dad for a Chiropractor. I've always had back problems before Pria. Having kids just doubles it.

As far as the actually "having" a baby part. I kinda just want to get all the baby having over with honestly lol. Maybe my second pregnancy will be different and I will like being pregnant... Most likely not. Not a big fan of the fat part haha. The birth part I am not concerned about. It is just one day. Being pregnant is 9 dang months long. The first 5 months is fine. The last 4 is my least favorite. Not a fan of the whole waddling around, not being able to handle myself physically like when I am not prego, sweat pants every day, and yeah being fat with huge boobs...

As far as what gender I want the next time around... I have mixed feelings. I want a girl again, sisters, bffs. But it would be nice to have a boy to know for sure we don't have to keep trying for one again, because I know Dustin would really like a son. Boys just seem like a lot of work. Moms even say boys are more work than girls in the early ages. So whatever we have the next time around, I will be happy.

Back to the Home blog

I will be posting again on our regular home blog now that the pregnancy is over. If you have just been following this blog and not my original, here is the link to our regular blog.
http://alyssandustin.blogspot.com
I will use my pregnancy blog again someday to journal any other pregnancies of mine in the future...
Hope you have enjoyed reading my journey through pregnancy.  :)

Baby Room Pics

Here is our baby room with a grey and yellow theme with teal accents. We reserved the empty wall space for pictures we will take of her and wooden letters of her name above the crib.

 Here is my rocking chair that my dad bought for me through craigslist. It was a great deal! Great condition and it is verrry comfy :) Thanks Dad!